I remember that days , days we were calling each other "batal" I used too feel like "elgondi el maghool" that one who goes to sacrifice everything ... , unfortunately I cant remember feelings , that days are gone we are no longer "abtal" , a hero have something to stand for,, now we have nothing ,our country our people betrayed us , so we came to a conclusion we are not part of this country's people , we have nothing in common !

el magls el 3askari ebn weskha wel e3lam el masry ebn weshkha wel el ekhwaan 3abeed el el ananya w my father's generation ebn 60 weskha wel sha3b kolo ebn weshkha

bs im waiting for signs ..

We used to say "that past days were great" we never appreciate a moment while living it, we always remember so I decided to say it now... "I am enjoying my life" il7amdolella,
we have been through much but one important lesson I have learnt.. "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do" –Mark twain— off course if we lived 20 years with that psychedelic mind !

OH

Yoom eltsa2olat (lelt 1 feb)

3'adn almozahara almolyonia w bma anany mosab a3eed atsa2l w atklm zai elnswan elmok3ada , elsh3b f tree2 sad w hosny f traee2 sad , bokra elnas nazlaa w el7aga elw7yda elmoshtraaka bnhoom enhom 3yzeen hosny ynzel ,w hosny mesh hydra wala haynfa3 ynzell beltra2a d , elwd3 fe3ln mot2zm w elnas saybaha 3ala allah bokra ,bokra yoom mashoood , 3ndena zawyeteen zawyeet elsha3b elli nazeel kolo bokra men 3'eer ka2eed w mesh hynfa3 yb2a fee ka2d w mn 3'eer estrategia w kool elli bykodo hwa ra3'bt elt5ls mn mobarak w mafesh ay tasree7 mola2em beyegi mn ra2is elgomhoria wala na2bo yleek bomostawa elwd3 elrahn , elzawya eltnia zawyeet ra2ees mot3'trees mot3ali mesh hydra ynzel matrood 2wln bdwa3i elkarama w alkbria2 2anian 3lshn myt7kmsh , 3alsn mynf3sh elrys ynzel f yoom w lela !,lazm tslm selmi lelslta b gdwal zamni !
Eltraee2 shebh masdood ahmed zewail gy delw2ti y2ol lazm ne3ml lagnt hokma2 w d 2a2rb haga lelsa7 bs ezayyy w hal lgnet elhokmaa2 d elsh3b hyda bklmtha wala hatsabeb elkhelfat welenksamat ,
Ana ra2ye w r2y b3d el3okla2 zai Mohamed sob7i en lazm nwsl lelo3't hewar ben elsolta w been elsh3b , eza kanet elsolta tored altafawoood f ma3 mn satatfawd!
Bokra ht7sl ezma el7l elw7eed w el2msl en se hosny y3ml byan 3n 7l maglsi elsh3b walshora kolohm mesh elt3oon w y7ot gdwl zamni letn7eeh 3n elsolta bshkl selmi monaseeb w yarab els3b ywafe2
Ana mot5f mn 7yl elsolta elwas3a elfr2 ben elsolta wel sh3b enohm lehom r2s w tfkeer 5reg elsonddok elli elsh3b byfkr fee , ama elsh3b f a3'lbyth mabyfkrsh asln w w ta7t ta2seer al7masa wal endefaa3 ,,, f momken elsolta teksbhoom bel7ela msln momken hosny yenzeel mogmo3at motzahra to2yedo w y5lihoom yestfzo elnas fal elgmoo3 tedoos 3alehoom … momken te7sl azma lazm elsh3b bokra yt7rk behkma shadeda w my2o3sh f 2y 3'lta modbara aw mesh modbra
Elnas waskeet f nafsaha, abl monenzeel yoom elgm3a w ablaha yama sem3t hata men a2rab elnas leya htzwed e aw hatn2s e hata mn omi , delw2ti etrad 3alehoom kolohm w m7dsh y2der y2ool kda w ana bad7k so5ryatan lma baftekr elso2al d elnas adrkt w haste bkwtha w d m5lini khayf mn 3ndehoom el momeet wadeni a3d zai el3gza b2ool rbna ystoor , 7arakat w tsre7at elrayes 3'bya felt2khor yrb yt3lm mn elli fat w yzbot bokra ,,,, tsre7ato de law knet et2alet f wa2t wahed felw2t elsa7 kan momken tahdii
Tool 3omri batfrg 3ala el2flam elli btatnawel hayat aw goz2 mn hayat sh5s w atasa2l hal haytna testahel yt3mlaha film w tool 3omr elegaba kanet l2 , delw2ti w a5eran n3m
Ana basm3 kana masrya fag2a delw2tii gybeen kam wa7ed by7boo mobarak :D ,
F khtar ana mokontesh hazkoro bsbbab eno tamn re5ees lelhdf el2akbr.. harakt elnhb elmonazma elli haslt w elli motwk3 enaha te7sl bokra f sadad khoroog elsh3b lelmozahara elmelionia

So2al byrwdni hal elsawra elshababya d fe3ln malhash ka2eed ?! ,mafesh had waraha !!, meen 3ml page kolena khaled sa3eed , meen 3ml event mozahret yoom 25 , men 3ml gom3t el3'db! men 3ml el mozahra elmolionia , elshabab!!w lee matl3sh le7d delw2ti yakood elsawra , w hal lee estrategia mo3ayana , hal homa kano nawiin yobehmo soltet elsawra 3ala tool wala kano nawiin ytl3o fel2a5eer ba3d mat2mneet lehom yakoodo , momkeen ykon enkta3 al internet 3rkl 5tethom bas aho etsrfo w 3rfo yrwgo lel mozahra alelyonia kwis , asami elmoszahrat de ma7tot b sya3a fsh5, w lee mahdsh fkr fel mawdoo3 d hal le2ano mesh mohm !wala elnas etlaheet wala fe3ln mafeesh ka2ed , de mesh 3shw2ya , d had sayee3 fsh5, elso2al hl elhad d 3ml elli 3ali w saybha 3ala allah wala nawi 3ala e ?

OH

sawret 28 jan wel rosasteen

How do I became like that after rosasteen (matati)! I cant believe the difference between these very moments before and after rosasteen!(3ala fekra elrosas elmatati mesh by5bt fek w yfot tani wala le 3laka belmatatJ) Before was unbelievable I was on fire ,fire I never felt for my hole life ,what was inside me was indescribable , nobody could understand except who shared our SAWRA , I feel shame on myself , I feel shame because rosasteen mataty , changed my hole situation from the readiness to die for a real reason to looking for myself only , I left the whole sawra and the whole place for rosasteen shame on me people died there for us. I missed that very moment...
I cant imagine how happy I could be in that very moment when I see that we defeated the dirty police when I see the army going in (as I didn’t know that eld5lia hatl3 aws5 and te3ml elli 3mlto) ,shame on me I cant do anything now but waiting and watching news like elneswan , shame on me I got those rosasteen from the behind other than that I would be wearing a shorts and showing off, the only thing im proud of is some shazaya from the front if my left leg
, I saw what is the meaning to be MASRY and hole the Egyptians literally are your brothers , fastest love you could feel ever to every one your eyes fall in , kmyeet rogola men ad3f banat ,
Im prould of these generation of that youth of these MASRYEEN ,nobody had seen something like that for a long time , we said that tunis are regala who said we are not! We are faster (: , people who are doing the main sha3'abs and robbery are mainly secret police and that is a , (sa7b elkwat neha2yan fg2a w ta7welhoom men katlna w darbna ela nahbna w sarketna is a khyana 3ozma ygb an yo7asab 3lyha 7osny 5ra w hapip el3rsy ) its all planed , because of these mother fuckers I cant celebrate , I cant laught when I remember people saying to me htzawwed e wala hatna2s e ,, hwa sa7e7 5rbnaha bas isa elsun hatetl3 b3d 3tmt elnight ,
khaled khella ENTA BATL bs 3'bi (: ent w nas kteer ba7bha w ma3rfsh esmaha
Khaled Hegazy ,Sahar abo taleb ,Eman eldeep , amir hany , mahmould elzomor ,ruba 7aga , ,ahmed 7aga ,ahmed tani , ya7ia elsadi ,nada hussien ,kareem abd elfta7 , mody serry , w nas kteer mesh 3rf esmaha<3 br="" ento="" kwyseen="">Hosny mobarak ent sharmoot kalp ,adel emam monafek ebn wes5a bs beyd7kni

OH

faraman

ana karart a post elli katbto asna2 elsawra 3ashan hagat kteer , feha 3'alatat bas ana mesh 3ayz 2a edit-ha f ha hya kma kotibat :)

WE ARE GREAT

its that emothional ,its that feeling u cant even imagine without LIVE experiancing that mwa7ada ENERGY FLOW comming throw sha3b masr starting throw your toes to your raging burning brain, when u feel liberated when u feel that kind of freedom , freedom we missed for a long time ,
now i really can say that "انا بحب مصر" and the better part that feeling of "انا بحب شعب مصر"i cant write a world without noticing my tears, i realized that we are GREAAAAAAT ,i had that happiness i havent felt for a long long time , may be i never experienced that kind of happiness ever , that happiness where eltkshera doesn't leave my face and i cant count thoughts in my mind , i really cant go along that enormous flow of emotions by writing so im random,
i feel sympathy for negative people i had seen today ,and i only tear when i get that photo in my mind ( -ve VS +ve people as i realize that -ve people are really close to me,)


SHA3B MASR im impressed ,, when i saw the ragest power in the smallest little girl i'm impressed ,when i saw the wa3y "sakafi w deni w watani " in the simplest people im impressed ,when i saw that "nazra mow7ada" nazreet 3azima , nazret sah3b egabiiiiii im impressed , all who had missed today im sorry for you but you still have that OPPORTUNITY , we all are going to sacrifice all what we have to get 7ORIAA..

TRee2 EL5tr "edya f gyobi w albi yndrp"

Narcissism i cant get over it yet i said im gonna be talking about people in my life but here i am for the last time ,

i remeber when i used to be the STAR it was unbelievable ----are you talking shit i dont know you! mt-hreesh 3la den abona :) __ im talking about that great feeling when everybody can identify you without being able to touch you they only watch and dream ! when you standout the world , when you are the STAR--

you was A star im a star too you may recognize my p*n*s-
-tol 3mrk aleel el2db i have been always on fire , my early days my starness was that i was shatoor in the school w b5ls el2weel f hset elemla2 :)

i was the first who argued with teacher ,then the first who refused to be hit  by the teacher (in our scoop), then for a long time i was the star in kicking guys asses i was the strongest in my age i used to defeat guys 2 years older than me in rest.. after that my starness was my 5na2at w sha2awa , i was very adventurous actually i miss that , after that being a rebel and getting my ass in many problems , then kest elen7raf , then being shee5 then my flame etafa , then i came back with a fake one when nobody in my age saw wala benj wala maganess before wana bahrt el3alm kolo bel benj wl mganess :)--
-haha tezak ent welmganes bt3tk -
--beside my starness is sport which was really beautiful and i suffered with it much , early in my life my tennis couch  used to call me  "falta :)"  he would say to all the team who's much older than me in training take a step back and watch omar , it was my talent <3>, then a handball goal keeper its great

im not organized but i remember when i was intentionally funny f dars Mrs magda cause there was that girl i loved to see her smile ,

i really dont know where my sense of humor has gone, damn it i was funny!! (:,

fi dars ahmed youssef i was always running the show he was a rude person who disrespected every one but me and some other girls , 
i remember that shiny eyes looking at me admiring my boldness,

i liked being creator where everyone uses your creation without even knowing . once i was really good at math w zaki fsh5 f3ln mesh 3rf elmwdoo3 d ra7 feen :),

i really love that moments when you really feel that you are in love with your self ,your the best one in the world nothing na2saak rather than that is really dangerous

i dreamed of a machine i held it with my both hands then FLY....... , i cant describe that feeling im about to cry (: ,

---great but most of what u said is a fake kind of starness --
-i know im just making use of it, im getting back on track..  on the right track im going to be a star,, to be a STAR , everyone was born to be some kind of a star , i like that song "anything but ordinary " but its the last choice, if u cant,, die !!

ahh starness is not a word :)

OH

kshkooli

space ask about anything ,is it the rules, is it the language, is it the world or its just something we don't know or we even don't think about?

every day it supposes to be easier it becomes more complicated,,

may be its simpler than we ever expected.. who knows! when its powerfully there but why its not that simple to see.. to actually see to believe to love .., why whoever we are we cannot avoid human nature , why at some moments of ur life you cannot notice anything in the world but your breath and all what you are thinking about is "is that normal"..

why at some points we have alot of whys,and other times we have not any ..

why it looks like en ana bahrtl :)

stability, is it good or bad thing,, i just don't like.

im not talking about risk but do we accept the granted or only what we want or 0 ?

there something about tense i really love i hope to be always using it

one last wish: i hope to understand what i wrote tomorrow even not understanding will be better will be great 2 days ago :)

(note for myself: do not write then write)

i will lease writing about myself for a wyl, and start righting about people in my life .