sawret 28 jan wel rosasteen

How do I became like that after rosasteen (matati)! I cant believe the difference between these very moments before and after rosasteen!(3ala fekra elrosas elmatati mesh by5bt fek w yfot tani wala le 3laka belmatatJ) Before was unbelievable I was on fire ,fire I never felt for my hole life ,what was inside me was indescribable , nobody could understand except who shared our SAWRA , I feel shame on myself , I feel shame because rosasteen mataty , changed my hole situation from the readiness to die for a real reason to looking for myself only , I left the whole sawra and the whole place for rosasteen shame on me people died there for us. I missed that very moment...
I cant imagine how happy I could be in that very moment when I see that we defeated the dirty police when I see the army going in (as I didn’t know that eld5lia hatl3 aws5 and te3ml elli 3mlto) ,shame on me I cant do anything now but waiting and watching news like elneswan , shame on me I got those rosasteen from the behind other than that I would be wearing a shorts and showing off, the only thing im proud of is some shazaya from the front if my left leg
, I saw what is the meaning to be MASRY and hole the Egyptians literally are your brothers , fastest love you could feel ever to every one your eyes fall in , kmyeet rogola men ad3f banat ,
Im prould of these generation of that youth of these MASRYEEN ,nobody had seen something like that for a long time , we said that tunis are regala who said we are not! We are faster (: , people who are doing the main sha3'abs and robbery are mainly secret police and that is a , (sa7b elkwat neha2yan fg2a w ta7welhoom men katlna w darbna ela nahbna w sarketna is a khyana 3ozma ygb an yo7asab 3lyha 7osny 5ra w hapip el3rsy ) its all planed , because of these mother fuckers I cant celebrate , I cant laught when I remember people saying to me htzawwed e wala hatna2s e ,, hwa sa7e7 5rbnaha bas isa elsun hatetl3 b3d 3tmt elnight ,
khaled khella ENTA BATL bs 3'bi (: ent w nas kteer ba7bha w ma3rfsh esmaha
Khaled Hegazy ,Sahar abo taleb ,Eman eldeep , amir hany , mahmould elzomor ,ruba 7aga , ,ahmed 7aga ,ahmed tani , ya7ia elsadi ,nada hussien ,kareem abd elfta7 , mody serry , w nas kteer mesh 3rf esmaha<3 br="" ento="" kwyseen="">Hosny mobarak ent sharmoot kalp ,adel emam monafek ebn wes5a bs beyd7kni

OH

faraman

ana karart a post elli katbto asna2 elsawra 3ashan hagat kteer , feha 3'alatat bas ana mesh 3ayz 2a edit-ha f ha hya kma kotibat :)

WE ARE GREAT

its that emothional ,its that feeling u cant even imagine without LIVE experiancing that mwa7ada ENERGY FLOW comming throw sha3b masr starting throw your toes to your raging burning brain, when u feel liberated when u feel that kind of freedom , freedom we missed for a long time ,
now i really can say that "انا بحب مصر" and the better part that feeling of "انا بحب شعب مصر"i cant write a world without noticing my tears, i realized that we are GREAAAAAAT ,i had that happiness i havent felt for a long long time , may be i never experienced that kind of happiness ever , that happiness where eltkshera doesn't leave my face and i cant count thoughts in my mind , i really cant go along that enormous flow of emotions by writing so im random,
i feel sympathy for negative people i had seen today ,and i only tear when i get that photo in my mind ( -ve VS +ve people as i realize that -ve people are really close to me,)


SHA3B MASR im impressed ,, when i saw the ragest power in the smallest little girl i'm impressed ,when i saw the wa3y "sakafi w deni w watani " in the simplest people im impressed ,when i saw that "nazra mow7ada" nazreet 3azima , nazret sah3b egabiiiiii im impressed , all who had missed today im sorry for you but you still have that OPPORTUNITY , we all are going to sacrifice all what we have to get 7ORIAA..

TRee2 EL5tr "edya f gyobi w albi yndrp"

Narcissism i cant get over it yet i said im gonna be talking about people in my life but here i am for the last time ,

i remeber when i used to be the STAR it was unbelievable ----are you talking shit i dont know you! mt-hreesh 3la den abona :) __ im talking about that great feeling when everybody can identify you without being able to touch you they only watch and dream ! when you standout the world , when you are the STAR--

you was A star im a star too you may recognize my p*n*s-
-tol 3mrk aleel el2db i have been always on fire , my early days my starness was that i was shatoor in the school w b5ls el2weel f hset elemla2 :)

i was the first who argued with teacher ,then the first who refused to be hit  by the teacher (in our scoop), then for a long time i was the star in kicking guys asses i was the strongest in my age i used to defeat guys 2 years older than me in rest.. after that my starness was my 5na2at w sha2awa , i was very adventurous actually i miss that , after that being a rebel and getting my ass in many problems , then kest elen7raf , then being shee5 then my flame etafa , then i came back with a fake one when nobody in my age saw wala benj wala maganess before wana bahrt el3alm kolo bel benj wl mganess :)--
-haha tezak ent welmganes bt3tk -
--beside my starness is sport which was really beautiful and i suffered with it much , early in my life my tennis couch  used to call me  "falta :)"  he would say to all the team who's much older than me in training take a step back and watch omar , it was my talent <3>, then a handball goal keeper its great

im not organized but i remember when i was intentionally funny f dars Mrs magda cause there was that girl i loved to see her smile ,

i really dont know where my sense of humor has gone, damn it i was funny!! (:,

fi dars ahmed youssef i was always running the show he was a rude person who disrespected every one but me and some other girls , 
i remember that shiny eyes looking at me admiring my boldness,

i liked being creator where everyone uses your creation without even knowing . once i was really good at math w zaki fsh5 f3ln mesh 3rf elmwdoo3 d ra7 feen :),

i really love that moments when you really feel that you are in love with your self ,your the best one in the world nothing na2saak rather than that is really dangerous

i dreamed of a machine i held it with my both hands then FLY....... , i cant describe that feeling im about to cry (: ,

---great but most of what u said is a fake kind of starness --
-i know im just making use of it, im getting back on track..  on the right track im going to be a star,, to be a STAR , everyone was born to be some kind of a star , i like that song "anything but ordinary " but its the last choice, if u cant,, die !!

ahh starness is not a word :)

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kshkooli

space ask about anything ,is it the rules, is it the language, is it the world or its just something we don't know or we even don't think about?

every day it supposes to be easier it becomes more complicated,,

may be its simpler than we ever expected.. who knows! when its powerfully there but why its not that simple to see.. to actually see to believe to love .., why whoever we are we cannot avoid human nature , why at some moments of ur life you cannot notice anything in the world but your breath and all what you are thinking about is "is that normal"..

why at some points we have alot of whys,and other times we have not any ..

why it looks like en ana bahrtl :)

stability, is it good or bad thing,, i just don't like.

im not talking about risk but do we accept the granted or only what we want or 0 ?

there something about tense i really love i hope to be always using it

one last wish: i hope to understand what i wrote tomorrow even not understanding will be better will be great 2 days ago :)

(note for myself: do not write then write)

i will lease writing about myself for a wyl, and start righting about people in my life .

virtual reality

Great percent of Egyptians smokes hash , they are more than you know and its every where
when we was young we had an idea that drugs are very dangerous and bad and few people are addicted to it( movies and surrounding environment) at first movies represented the end of each drug addict as a died man or as a prisoner ,
when we grew older movies started to represent hash and pango as a normal thing youth does (3abood 3l hodood , ellemby)in really its not one of the upper cases , in reality more than half of the people you see smoked or smoking hash or pango or mosakenat or persham and guess what you see them alive and in good health !,i decided to try it when i saw a policeman and close person to me smoking hash ( something i never expected)you can call a hash smoker an addict if you call a sigaret smoker an addict,s
o why hash? its nice it some times gives you a good feeling it makes you laugh then laugh again ,easy to get anyone can make a deal in drugs with out being a merchant and its very profitable and easy so there is many dealers , every class in our society can afford smoking hash , even if u have no money or friends you can get some by being a midpoint for the dealer and smoker , if you didn't smoke it mesh beygelak elharsha u can smoke anything else or u can stop , you see much older men smoking hash and in good health,

THE most beautifull thing about hash , drugs in general and alcohol that it gives you the energy ,the push ,the power to do anything comes to your mind and most importantly the SOCIAL EXCUSE ,you can rape a man and later say i was waisted sorry and your friends will say he was waisted m3lsh ,a friend of me was about to fuck a gay german while he was waisted althought in reallity he is straight awe ,
hash makes you have a better time with your friends without resources  its great with girls before making out or sex ,even if you do nothing .
its a virtual world with real consequences that is sometimes a good thing but you can not always be in a virtual world its a great time waist ,
the negative about el hash you feel like it eats ur brain cells ,im not a doctor but the ability of focusing and the memory is affected,
when u are really waisted from hash u can focus only on one thing for instance your all of  your mind can be thinking and focusing in walking in a straight line (at the first time i realized that a great ne3ma from allah is the perception u can focus on many things) so gives u pleasure by talking from u not giving you, it makes you a real fool but smokers say who cares if i'm happy fuck the world (bel3arabe kos om enas )
i have a complete control on myself in smoking hash , i can stay for many months without smoking hash even years if i want
the great danger about hash that it takes people minds from productivity so mainly its a dangerous to any society( but not the egyptian one :) because that dangeor exists already


OH

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im just writing , so i will only record , some people have been easly hypnotized i hope they gonna walkup early . im kind of getting out of my life ,i like that cause i was borred ,
also perfection can be borring im only waiting for onething , great , im sleeping 3ala nafse w ba5araf , kiss w goodnight