10 years ago it was a start, an opening, a first try for a boy who wanted to try everything , that day i was walking with 2 friends , one seen a "sigarra" on the ground , he picked it up , he staired at it ,we all known that he wanted to try it, we actually did not mind if he tried it but he said that he will not try it without us , i accepted mai thought for a minute then she accepted , we got matchs and some baskoot and lightned it up aly took the first nafas silently he gave it to me , i took my nafas , its tast disgusted me it was so bad i took another nafas then i decided to stop and eat elbaskoot , mai did the same but with a little feminin touch ,if anyone known i have done that specially that age he would even kill me if he can or say that i'm very bayez w hadee3 after 3 month , for few days i didn't stop thinking why older people smokes ? i know know that it is not the taste or the pleasure , so why?? is it something i cant understand now?! ,so i left the question opened , some day i will know ,
nice t, after i tried el sagayer i was was sitting with my dad at a cafe he was smoking shesha i asked him why are you smoking it it have a bad taste, it seemed as child slip , he asked me if i tried el sagayer ?? i said yes he smiled while he was listening , then he gave me shesha and he said try it if u want, i said no .
that was the good side of what i have done , the other good side that from that day i'm addicted to "trying", as usual most of what seduces anyone to try is bad , but there was some rules like ,any thing i try today well not affect me tomorrow , not being a slave to anything... so i decided to try everything comes to my mind but under my rules , so i tried some stuff.. , (law mamy areet elbeta3 d hat3mele 3eed melad)
f2ola sanawy most of my friends started smoking, i asked everyone, why? i never got an answer all was 3ade,yomeen wehbal , 3ashan bab2a ma5noo2 , ay klaam but something have a meaning , in my school it started by someone wanted to be unique to his age followed by other wanted to be unique like the first, eventually all the school became unique, i tied to get people i love from this "uniqueness" i tried everything talking , eldarb , and many other ways ,i got nothing some of them was just hiding there sigaret when they see me, as if they can change any thing in the world except that ,they cant even think about changing it ,
i just didn't want to see them like my father who is a typical slave to siggarets every month he tries to quit but he always fails he had a galta in his heart and had a heart sergery , docters said the first and most important thing to do is to quit segarets , he quited for a month then he retarned back , he is litterly killing him self, i know few persons who succeded in quiting it , but the question i s why???? from the first place does elsegara deseve all that . everystarted it few years ago said that " segara kool feen w feen w 2a2dar abtaal f 2y wa2t" now they cant , what will they do after 5 years , 10 years , 30 years, everyday they have a better chance to quit than the next day , my father wishes to retairn to there age to quit cause it will be a 1000 time easyer,
people who smoke sigarets at first they say just like me its under control,few month may be few years they don't control it any more, it controls them , they become slaves to a little nothing , we must not let any probability to be a slave to anything ,
people i know are like that long time ago,
(rabena y3enkoo wetbtloo)
new people i lately knew , ye7yo7a started smoking lately , and cause i know that he is smart and mature , i woundered ??,
and cause i care about him i decided that he will not continue, so i tryed talking, 3afya, till once howa tal3 segara and started smoking it, i tried to stop him but he 2fsh, i dicided to, whenever he smokes i will smoke with him and if he cares for me like i do for him, he may stop. so i took the segaret from him and smoked it , i seen in his eyes that( dont care) look , so i knew that i cant change his (whatever), but ye7ya zaki and he will grow up quickly.
when i first seen nirvana smokes i was shocked, i seen girls doing much worse than that but i never been shocked, cause with few people i expect the good first, at first i didn't observe nirvana , but lately i noticed that she is something..
for people i love if you cant get out of your slaveness, dont make me see you in that pathetic situation, please ..
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